December 2010
56 posts
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So I decided that I WILL be taking ballet. No if ands and buts about it.
My new schedule for Jan-April will go as followed.
M-F: Volunteering at the ROC until 2pm.
Find a day SOMEWHERE in there to do Toms house (b/c that’s $130-200 that I just CANNOT let go of).
Work 3-7pm.
Saturday: Work 8am-5pm. 915-1015 Ballet.
Sunday at 4pm-Beginners Yoga.
Sunday’s are also reserved for...
I don’t have to be perfect and you don’t have to like it… She chose me and that’s good enough.
So last night I missed babes Meet-N-Greet for the academy. I was pretty down about it, but walking into an informative lecture wasn’t really the first impression I wanted to give all, especially being that I am a young adult.
My mom was saying earlier that evening, and even earlier in the week, that in the event I couldn’t make it, she would bring me all the spouse...
So after a breakfast date with my anal father I’ve made a plan for myself that’ll hopefully make us BOTH happy. Quite frankly I’m tired of being told things I already know. I’m tired of being talked down to when it comes to my dreams. I’m tired of not being taken seriously. So my plan goes as follow:
Summer 2010 (if possible): Get started working towards an AAS...
“You don’t need to give reasons for the things you do - you just have to do what...”
– Kristen Stewart (via krisisthebest)
Amen.
(via untoldmanifests)
"Union"
Honestly I don’t ever want to think about the future ever again. I’m finally done. Lesson learned. ONE DAY AT A TIME. No expectations.
No love lost. No love found.
The sky is so beautiful right now. It looks as though water colors have been strewn over a stretched canvas.
I'm just curious.
1000moons:
I’d always look at posts, that said, “Leave an anonymous message in my ask box, saying what you think of me”. And, I always though, “Wow, Why do you even care?”. But, I guess it’s all out of curiosity. Because, Now I’m wondering. So, If you’d like, will you leave a message in my ask box of what you think of me? Anonymous or not. I’ll post them, without a reply. It’s just criticism, I...
1000moons:
People always ask me about us. It hurts to tell them, and when I do, they’re startled. After I tell them, they end up saying things such as, ‘I don’t see how you guys can be over, you were perfect together!’ then, right when I thought it didn’t matter to me anymore, all these feelings pour back into my heart, and the pain I once went through I’m suddenly experiencing all over...
Watchbrklynbreed:
A quick lesson on why you should embrace your age!
This is one of my FAVORITE scenes of all time. Gotta love Girlfriends.
I JUST DIED! I LOVED this episode!
I’ve briefly stopped caring. It’s the only way that I can have some peace of mind. My thoughts are SO loud. I had a panic attack. I feel an ulcer coming. I took 6 showers in less than 4 hours because it was the only way I could silence my thoughts.
I feel like…No I do…I have a lack of outlets so I feel like I’m just being poisoned.
I need to do something. Find...
Perhaps it’s time I look back into the military. I’m out of options… With everything. It’s not where I want to be or want to do, but when I no longer have choices… Well it’s like what else is there.
Watch*cries* I can’t deal!
He was SO serious. omg and the camera was shaking from his heavy behind jumping all over the place!
Gone Meditating, be back soon.
I need to get out…
NOW!
I’m so sick an tired of not being able to have silence in the place where I rest my head at night.
A tension headache is already coming on an tears are just welling up.
She doesn’t understand the importance of it to me.
“We’ve sat in silence for almost an hour.”
So then the tv is turned on.
Maybe not everyone wants to hear...
That awkward moment when you stop abruptly and...
brklynbreed:
Or, some of us do a weird pee pee dance to keep it from flowin.
or damn near crawl on the floor.
Randon Rant
One thing I do not understand about some people:
They sit there and say how they hate their ex, how much that person has hurt them, how even the S L I G H T E S T mention of their name makes them sick…
and yet…
They’re buddy buddy with them on social networking sites.
That makes me lose respect for that person. Like stick to one or the other. A person doesn’t change...
Quiet Listening.: You want to know what I hate? →
1000moons:
I hate trying really hard, just to get no where. I hate being to the point where I’m so ready to just give up, again, and again, and again. You know? I hate the fact that I know nothing I ever do will ever go right. I hate the knowing that I’m such a fuck-up. Most of all, I hate the fact that I…
Confessions of a Hopeless Romantic
Even though I said
“you and so and so should go to the game”
and I meant it, I really wish that, despite wanting to go badly, she would have said
“fuck the game.”
and be home with me.
Dear Fibromyalgia,
You will NOT pull that mess you pulled last night! Bitch do NOT try me!
Sincerely,
-Em
If there’s one thing that I cannot stand it’s a cold, guarded person. Don’t block me out or be a bitch just because the people in your past treated you like complete crap. I’m not them and never will be.
“There are 3 great things in this world. the first thing is for you to love...”
– anthonyyyy (via edge-of-desiree)
Apologizing for the mess
In my attempts to learn html and CSS all over again my blog, as a result, is a mess. Forgive me. Smh I definitely do NOT have the time or patience that once had for building layouts and tending to html and CSS like I did when I was 14 years old -_-.
I think I’ll just go back to a theme and call it a day.
Yay for aging.
This mess just made me feel ultra old.
Women need to get it in their minds.
It’s okay to think that that person is the one and it’s okay to feel like you want to marry them, but women need to get this their minds (myself included):
“I feel you could really be the one, but I’m going to focus on now. If it happens it happens.”
This would eliminate the expectation and disappointed that so many women face in long term relationships.
Not...
Linking Testosterone to Lesbianism (my opinion)
On twitter a question was thrown out about whether or not high levels of testosterone in woman can be linked to lesbianism.
My opinion, yes.
When the female body produces higher levels of testosterone, than the average female, it causes changes in the neurological responses of both mind and body. Naturally testosterone is attracted to estrogen like a magnet. Woman experiencing higher levels of...
A random thought.
I swear, I fall back into my shell so quickly, but I dare not say the things that truly bother me for the fear of confrontation. Some things are better left unsaid.
Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging - My...
INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally “doers” as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate...
Day 30- Who are you?
I’m Emjay.
A dreamer.
Humanitarian.
Pesco-Vegetarian.
A daughter.
A girl-friend.
W H I M S I C A L.
Healing.
Imperfect.
Anxious.
[[introverted]]
A realist.
Self-aware.
Lover of the arts.
An apprentice painter.
Baker.
A stubborn mule in the mud.
Head strong.
Opinionated.
PROUD African American.
One who lives the natural lifestyle.
A cook.
A friend.
A Listener.
A...
BrklynBreed: Dispelling 3 Myths About Love. →
brklynbreed:
If you’ve never been in love, don’t let the fairy tales fool you into believing 3 prevailing themes:
“All it takes is love…” No, it takes trust, respect, fidelity, communication, commitment, compromise, honesty, loyalty, desire, passion, resources/means, will, fight, shared interests, chemistry……
“Life is a work in progress.”
– Me (however, I wouldn’t doubt that this was said before.)
Diary of Change: Entry 5 "Walking in faith"
I feel myself becoming more patient. As my mom would always say…
We are a patient people
I learn that things will come…in HIS time, not mine. I’m learning to truly walk in faith. It’s actually been quite sometime since I’ve stressed my job situation. I took the time to do a few applications, but other than that I’m not stressing over it anymore. Even though...
“Don’t ask a question if you can’t handle the opinions, truth and...”
– Me
Issues in the LGBQT community.
One of the subjects that I keep seeing popping up on twitter is that of gender roles in the LGBQT community. It seems as though so many people have trouble accepting things that may seem taboo, even for such a community. Amongst the few the most troubling seem to be:
Stud on Stud.
Studs, FTM’s and/or Butch females that have had and/or are having children.
Bisexual fems AND studs.
...
Day 29- In the past month, what have you learned.
I suppose in the past month I’ve learned a thing or two.
*ponders as flash back clips play in slow motion in my mind to slow 80’s rock ballads*
Hmmm. You know, I suppose I have really just learned how to become self aware. This previous month has really been a month on focusing on self and self-growth. I’ve learned how to listen to myself when I’m speaking, so that I...
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now; how...
The first three photos are all from 2009; last from 2010.
How have I changed. I’m trying to stay true to that and not drift off into how my life has changed.
I’ve noticed that I’ve become an angrier person. I’m still open-hearted, kind, giving, unselfish in the things that I do, but my negative attributes have really flourished. I realize this is not a good...
